Please read this.

I did not write the following post, though I wish I had.  But since I read the original-- almost a year ago--I have never forgotten it.

Now, as some of us are counting down the days until November and some of us are in the middle of rewrites and deadlines, I'd like to take a moment.  A short space in time.  A deep breath.

And remind us all why we write.




Somewhere, there is a woman, sitting in a room, three days past a rape. Her bruises are turning purple and in a few more days, they're going to be that greenish hue of ghouls. She hasn't looked in a mirror, yet, but the swelling is starting to abate, and she can open her jaw without the execrable pain. The screaming is almost entirely in her head, now. The stitches hurting her remind her she's alive and she's not really sure why people keep telling her that, as if that's a good thing. She's not sure she wants to be. There's been just enough time to get past the initial shock, the stunned chaotic business of having lost any sense of strength in the face of the world. She has had just enough time to be processed, and there should be a stamp for her forehead: file # 56449A221.

Oh, people have been caring. They have been very professionally caring. All of the people, scads of them. They have been very careful not to touch her or move too fast. Everyone is diligent about addressing her respectfully, using her name, always making sure she feels like an individual. She can see it, see in their eyes how she is now different. The opposite of the person on the other side of the desk, where there are things like strength and weapons and confidence.

And right now, she is finally alone, though the moat around her has turned into an ocean, and the screaming, it just keeps on coming. For a few minutes, not having to deal with anyone else is good. A relief. But then there is the silence, and in the silence, it all happens again. She cannot close her eyes, because it's all happening. Again. She cannot talk to someone, because the screaming will break free. Or the tears. Either may kill her.

She needs. Needs. To be somewhere else, other than here. Other than this thing she's become. Needs to be able to step outside of her skin for a little while. Maybe a long long time.

She's going to go to her bookcase and pick up something. Maybe it's something where the woman kicks someone's ass. Maybe it's one where the good guy wins. Or the DA is brilliant. Or the girl comes of age and has confidence. Whatever it is, she gets to step outside of the bruises and the cuts and the broken bones for a little while. She gets to live a different ending. A different beginning. Have a safe place to be. And somehow, maybe, have a little hope that this thing, too, will pass.

Write a story for her.

~*~

Somewhere, there is a man, sitting in a hospital room. His wife has cancer, and he's been there, every day, before and after work. Except now, he can be there full-time, since he's lost his job. He's spent days seeking help, trying to find a way to keep her there, to make sure she has the care she needs, when all of his benefits are gone. He's filled out more paperwork in this one week than he's done in a lifetime, and only barely understands half of what they've told him, if that.

He'll try to get a second mortgage for the house. Sell off the second car, trade his in for something cheaper. The savings--such as it is, there's not much with two kids--is gone. The retirement will go next, and that might last a month, at this rate. They don't qualify yet for any sort of Medicare or help. His sister is at his house, boxing up stuff to sell. Doing it while the kids are at school, so they don't see.

The screaming is almost entirely in his head, now. The anger, the rage, the helplessness. His wife's asleep, and sleep is so rare with the pain she's in, he can't risk turning on the TV. She's been in too much pain for him to leave the room, though.

He's lost. He sees it in the eyes of the nurses, sees it in the eyes of the administrator. The woman running the accounts payable office.  He's become this other thing, this person he doesn't know, and right now, for a little while, he needs. Needs. To be somewhere else but here. Someone else but him.

He'll slump down in the God-awful chair they have in the room, punching a pillow that one of the orderlies found for him, and he'll crack open that favorite paperback he grabbed on his way out the house this morning. For a little while, he gets to be a hero. He gets to fight crime or solve problems, save the world or save the girl. For a little while, he gets to have hope.

Write a story for him.

~*~
A lot of people in the industry are scared right now--things look bleak. If you're pushing through NaNoWriMo or that draft on deadline or beginning a new project, you may be at that part of the process where you're feeling exhausted--or scared to begin. Writer fatigue and fear are hard to combat in the face of a lot of bad news, and especially hard to slug it out when it looks like the possibility of selling is dwindling to nothing.

And this, ironically, is when we need story the most.

Story-telling has been around for millennia for a reason--we need to connect. We need to both transport somewhere other than our own daily circumstances and to connect to others, to know that someone out there understands us. Understands our fears, our desires. We need to escape, without physically abandoning our family and friends. Stories do that. We need the hope, the connection, the dream.

Write a story for us.

Originally posted at the Murderati blog on Nov 23, 2008.

11 comments:

  1. Wonderful post, I like the suggestions to write stories for others in need of escape. My daughter just completed a college paper on bibliotherapy, and how reading books helps children through the trauma of divorce. An interesting therapy, most definitely. Very interesting stuff, looking at books that way.

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  2. Joanne- That is an interesting study! I know reading got me through a lot of misfit-ism in school, and a friend of mine read the Twilight books repeatedly during a really hard time. I think for those of us who hope to engage readers, whether writing fiction or memoir or whatever, this is a really good reminder.

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  3. I never saw this last year. Thank you for reposting it. It is a great post.

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  4. Wow. What a post. You know it's not often I go down this line of thought in regards to my writing. But it's so true.

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  5. Got the chills. I've never seen this either. What a wonderful, inspiring post. Reading has been a source of joy, comfort, and escape for me as well. Why wouldn't I write for others like me, looking to get lost in a good yarn.
    Thank you.
    Karen

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  6. PJ- You're welcome. I think someone I follow linked to it on Twitter, or I wouldn't have seen it either. I'm glad I did!

    Amy- I know! I searched all over Google yesterday and when I finally found the post, I got the same chills I got when I read it the first time. That's when I knew I had to put it up.

    Renee- It is true. And I found it so encouraging as well. We get all caught up in writing/revising/queries/agents/publishers that sometimes we forget about the readers.

    Karen- You're welcome! :) I agree with you about reading, sometimes it's the only thing holding me together. I'd love to give that to someone else.

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  7. Miriam, that was amazing. Thanks for reminding me why I love books and stories and making them. (No thanks for making me all teary-eyed, though!)

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  8. Winne- That was my plan... *giggles evil giggle* If you liked that, you should rumage through the Murderati backlogs. She's got some more posts that are just awesome.

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  9. I skipped the tears and went straight for the goose-bumps. What a PERFECT way to kick of NaNoWriMo. I planned to write a Fantasy novel all along about Good v. Evil. Maybe I will throw in a sub-text about Weakness v. Strength -- with a twist.

    Oh, thank you!!!

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  10. Miriam, thank you for posting this. I can relate. When I was going through cancer treatment, I wanted to escape - every day. I did it by watching movies and reading good books. So keep on writing, fellow authors!

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